On the other hand I have been eating less and taking up less space and this is positive. This is a good thing. Recovery be damned, I want to be thin!
No I'm not on a fast, I'm not a good behaved little girl who can shut her damn mouth to edibles, not. But I have reduced. I have gotten back some control (but not enough as the blinking horribly high numbers on my weighing scale can testify to in court). Still. Improvement. Some comfort.
Yesterday I attended a Reiki level 1 Workshop. They said it'd help me sleep. Do you know how strange and tiring and wonderful it feels to think nice lovely positive thoughts of white light and power and I am alright I am okay I am part of this great wonderful universe - type thoughts for a whole day? I didn't and it hurt my head. I got to sleep last night though, maybe my chakras are tired of being blocked. Maybe I was overcome by exhaustion and the ghosts in the corners of my room and my mind took naps as well.