Sunday, May 25, 2014

Up and up

I think I'm coming down with a fever but at least this semester I didn't get a case of the suicides so really, who am I to complain? 

It just started raining.

I haven't been to yoga for weeks now. I can feel my bones and muscles crying and begging for release but my god I've been losing weight without it and isn't that grand? Why go back. Why stretch things out and create space when it is so much better to shrink up? There are too many people in the world. I need to take up as little space as possible. This has been a challenge I've been taking on for a while and it is hard. I did badly in my classes. I don't know what to do, but I do know I am ashamed. I should have died, I wasted everyone's time yes yes yes I know, dear self-hating voice in my head, I have heard it all before (over exposure doesn't heal the wounds though). What do I do now?